Moving from Place to Place

I am in the process of writing my new book as I am going through a new experience that is leading me to deepen my faith and trust in Spirit. Below is a copy of one of the chapters.

This happened on: September 15 (my birthday)to September 23, 2009

These last few days have been rather interesting. Just when I wonder where will I rest my head next, or where my next meal is coming from, all that I need continues to show up in my life.

After I moved out of my new friend Bob’s house on Tuesday, I stayed with Gene at his place. Originally I was supposed to stay there for only one night since his roommate would be returning Wednesday morning. The night before however, I was teaching a class on A Course in Miracles, which I call, Practicing A Course in Miracles. The class went very well. It was the first time some people showed up since I just started teaching it and not anyone knew who I was. At the class, I was very open about my situation, and once again, that seems to be what people appreciate the most about me. Although it could be argued that many want to hear about heroes and people who seemed to have it all together, somewhere deep within, many feel alienated. In my case, the response I get is very positive and reassuring. Interestingly enough, I even open myself up for help to continue to come my way.

So as I am staying with Gene, he and his roommate are working on a project that requires graphic design, which they have had a tough time getting their vision across to the one who is doing the graphics for them. Gene shared with me what he wanted to created, I started putting images together for him, to what Gene said, “Oh my gosh, that’s exactly what I have been trying to get my graphic art man to do and I felt as if I was pulling teeth.”

I earned myself few more days at his house, not because of Gene, because he did not mind about me staying at his place, but because of his roommate who did not know me. I also have couple of places that have opened up for me to stay as I continue on this journey of surrendering and trust. Here is some of the feedback I continue to receive as I share my story with friends and Course in Miracles’ community:

“Oh Nick,

I finally read your latest post; it is truly amazing! Thank you on behalf of us all for blazing an experiential pathway - busting through the illusion of doubt and fear.

What a fabulous book (your next book) this section of the pathway will be...TRUST! What the hell is trust...unless it is ALL you're hanging onto? And the outcome of the gift of TRUST cannot be known until then...but who dares to take the risk? You do Nick...thank you.

Much love,”

Nouk Sanchez, co-author of Take Me To Truth

Dearest Nick,

See that everything is perfect exactly as it is. Rest in Awareness not as an anedote but with all the negative feelings. Be at peace with the feelings. Allow them to fully flower and see that they have no power to destroy you. Tremendous power is released in this moment and incredible insight. All of this is only images in a mirage without substance or power and are the dynamic energy of awareness.

All is well, this too shall pass back into the nothingness from whence it came... It is only temporary.

Love & Hugs,

Linda Jean McNabb, author of One Again

Although resources keep showing up from you could say unexpected sources, at least to get me through the day, what I would say that my journey is leading me to, is to keep my focus on the present moment. It is as if though, every seeming challenge I may be faced with, as I stop judging it and continue to surrender my thoughts to the Holy Spirit, I find myself experiencing more and more peace. And from that space, either ideas or opportunities continue to show up that are helping me develop more an more trust in my Higher Self. So even when from an intellectual perspective it could be argued that my life is less than perfect, in the larger scheme of things, the experiences I am drawing to me are nothing but opportunities to develop a more solid spiritual foundation.

The fact is that it is very easy to trust God when things seemed to be going well, but when they don’t we forget about God altogether and find ourselves in a survival mode, trying to change, fix, arrange, and control things, not realizing that all the effort is futile, because, not only our self initiated plans are not going to lead us to peace, they simply add more stress and fear to a mind that is fearful in the first place. It is a loose, loose situation.

As I was meditating at the park, where this book is also being written, and by the way, this is the same park where my first book, What Happens When You Let God was written as well, I felt moved to pick up A Course in Miracles and read lesson 135 titled, If I defend myself I am attacked. I would like to share the lesson here with you while also explaining what the lesson is about. But before doing so, if you are not familiar with A Course in Miracle’s teachings, I would suggest you read my first book What Happens When You Let God so that the full contend in this post, which will become my next book is clearly understood.

If I defend myself I am attacked.

"Who would defend himself unless he thought he were attacked, that the attack were real, and that his own defense could save himself? And herein lies the folly of defense; it gives illusions full reality, and then attempts to handle them as real. It adds illusions to illusions, thus making correction doubly difficult. And it is this you do when you attempt to plan the future, activate the past, or organize the present as you wish." W-pI.135.1:1-4

Notice that what the Course is referring to is that as long as I believe in my own projections, I am attacking myself. And that is because in reality there is really nothing happening out there. Everything is really happening in my mind. So if I stop reacting to images I am making up, then there is no reason for me to defend myself. Would you defend yourself if you were in a movie theater and the protagonist in the movie was calling out names that may seem as if he was looking right at you? How silly would it be to yell back at a movie screen, yet, that’s exactly what we do every time we react to illusions that seem to be taking place in our lives. One of my favorite lines from this lesson’s first paragraph is:

“...it gives illusions full reality, and then attempts to handle them as real. It adds illusions to illusions, thus making correction doubly difficult.” W-pI.135.1:2

Why is making the correction difficult? Because as long as I believe that I am a body, and that the circumstances I am dealing with are real, by me trying to attempt to solve them, all I am doing is solidifying in my unconscious the belief that that which I am trying to solve is really there. That’s why A Course in Miracles simply ask me to hand all of my thoughts and seeming challenges to the Holy Spirit so that the part of my mind that is projecting the illusions in the first place can be healed. Because remember, the ego is the part of the mind that believe in separation. It is not even real it is a mere believe. And to counteract that belief, the Holy Spirit is the part of our mind that remembers who we really are. It is the mediator between the thoughts of fear and the voice of God. And as long as we keep our attention on the Holy Spirit’s message, by choosing peace above all else, we are no longer at the effect of the illusions we seem to be projecting.

That’s pretty much what I am doing as I continue on this journey. I simply take each experience and offer it to the Holy Spirit for reinterpretation. That way I keep my peace, regardless of what’s going on in my seeming challenging experience. Do I get it right all the time? The answer is no. I still have my moment when fear and doubt arises, but as I continue to practice I get better at trusting, and developing faith. The faith that is allowing me to continue writing this book, and the one that allows me to experience peace as I share my story with you. Let us move on to the next paragraph.

"You operate from the belief you must protect yourself from what is happening because it must contain what threatens you. A sense of threat is an acknowledgment of an inherent weakness; a belief that there is danger which has power to call on you to make appropriate defense. The world is based on this insane belief. And all its structures, all its thoughts and doubts, its penalties and heavy armaments, its legal definitions and its codes, its ethics and its leaders and its gods, all serve but to preserve its sense of threat. For no one walks the world in armature but must have terror striking at his heart." W-pI.135.2:1-5

Although the paragraph is self-explanatory, I want you to see if you can guess which two words I would like you to pay close attention to:

“And all its structures, all its thoughts and doubts, its penalties and heavy armaments, its legal definitions and its codes, its ethics and its leaders and its gods, all serve but to preserve its sense of threat.”

The words I am referring to are “its gods.” Notice that gods is not capitalized, but most importantly, if you understand what A Course in Miracles is about, it could be said that the word gods within the context of the paragraph pretty much applies to everything that is not real. And what is not real? The whole world is not real. That includes not only the things we see but also everything that we seem to hear, taste, touch, smell, every thought we hold to be true, every belief, concept, idea, notion that we have about ourselves and everything else in general.

If you really want to know what it is that you consider to be your god simply notice what it is that you are attached too. Anything of this world that if as a result of being taken away would cause you to suffer, it is your god. If for example I let my experience and present circumstances determine how I should feel, or if I make my bank account or my job my source of financial safety, or if I let any relationship become my source of love, these are my substitutes for my Real God. And my present experience is simply giving me an opportunity to remind myself that my source of everything is God. As I said before, by simply doing my best to keep my attention in the present moment, and by choosing peace above all else, I can move through this experience without any suffering or impulse doing.

Have I achieved enlightenment? Have I got it al-together? Can I consider myself a highly evolved being, a guru, a master? I would say that the answer would be no. But at least, I keep doing my best to remember what the Course is always asking me to do. And that is to simply choose again. Remember, this is not a book I am writing from memory. Just like my first book, I am typing these words as I am moving through my present experience, just to help remind you that whatever it is you may be going through, you are exactly where you need to be, and that all I am doing is to serve as an example that there is a power within you that is wiling to take care of all of your needs, if you are willing to relinquish your thoughts to It. As a matter of fact, I told those who attended my Course in Miracles’ practice group last night that if I ever become a well-known speaker and author, they all have witnessed the place where I came from. Next paragraph.

"Defense is frightening. It stems from fear, increasing fear as each defense is made. You think it offers safety. Yet it speaks of fear made real and terror justified. Is it not strange you do not pause to ask, as you elaborate your plans and make your armor thicker and your locks more tight, what you defend, and how, and against what?" W-pI.135.3:1-5

I want you to notice the first ten words of the third sentence where the answers to all of your problems rest. “Is it not strange you do not pause to ask,...” Isn’t that what we’ve been told by every single master in one form or another when we are asked to “be still?”

The purpose of the stillness is so that the voice of the Holy Spirit can reminds us that all that we seem to be afraid of is not real. It is a constant reminder that I am not here to try to fix the world I see, for in doing so, as the paragraph you just read reminds me, is to “make your armor thicker and your locks more tight,...”

"Let us consider first what you defend. It must be something that is very weak and easily assaulted. It must be something made easy prey, unable to protect itself and needing your defense. What but the body has such frailty that constant care and watchful, deep concern are needful to protect its little life? What but the body falters and must fail to serve the Son of God as worthy host?" W-pI.135.4:1-5

"Yet it is not the body that can fear, nor be a thing of fear. It has no needs but those which you assign to it. It needs no complicated structures of defense, no health-inducing medicine, no care and no concern at all. Defend its life, or give it gifts to make it beautiful or walls to make it safe, and you but say your home is open to the thief of time, corruptible and crumbling, so unsafe it must be guarded with your very life." W-pI.135.5:1-4

"Is not this picture fearful? Can you be at peace with such a concept of your home? Yet what endowed the body with the right to serve you thus except your own belief? It is your mind which gave the body all the functions that you see in it, and set its value far beyond a little pile of dust and water. Who would make defense of something that he recognized as this?" W-pI.135.6:1-5

"The body is in need of no defense. This cannot be too often emphasized. It will be strong and healthy if the mind does not abuse it by assigning it to roles it cannot fill, to purposes beyond its scope, and to exalted aims which it cannot accomplish. Such attempts, ridiculous yet deeply cherished, are the sources for the many mad attacks you make upon it. For it seems to fail your hopes, your needs, your values and your dreams." W-pI.135.7;1-5

"The "self" that needs protection is not real. The body, valueless and hardly worth the least defense, need merely be perceived as quite apart from you, and it becomes a healthy, serviceable instrument through which the mind can operate until its usefulness is over. Who would want to keep it when its usefulness is done?" W-pI.135.8:1-3

"Defend the body and you have attacked your mind. For you have seen in it the faults, the weaknesses, the limits and the lacks from which you think the body must be saved. You will not see the mind as separate from bodily conditions. And you will impose upon the body all the pain that comes from the conception of the mind as limited and fragile, and apart from other minds and separate from its Source." W-pI.135.9:1-4

"These are the thoughts in need of healing, and the body will respond with health when they have been corrected and replaced with truth. This is the body's only real defense. Yet is this where you look for its defense? You offer it protection of a kind from which it gains no benefit at all, but merely adds to your distress of mind. You do not heal, but merely take away the hope of healing, for you fail to see where hope must lie if it be meaningful." W-pI.135.10:1-5

In the previous seven paragraphs, what we are reminded of is that since the body is not real, it has no needs and no power in and of itself. However, the mind, which is responsible for projecting the body, and for that matter everything we perceive to be real, is the one that assigns the body whatever it is that it seems to need. That’s why A Course in Miracles is never about fixing the body but about bringing the mind back to its original state, which is one of love; oneness. And although it talks about the body as my defense mechanism against truth, it could be said that it refers to all illusions. As much as the mind can make a body real and try to fulfill its illusory needs, it also projects a world that is not real in order to try to fulfill its illusory responsibilities. It’s really all the same.

Looking at my current state of affairs, the logical thing for me to do would be to panic, or worry, or to try to fix or change my seeming experience. But what if in reality there is a perfection unfolding as I type these words, that even when I am not sure where my life is going, or what am I going to be doing next, in due time I will be able to have an experience far more fulfilling, or even more extraordinary than anything I could have possibly imagine? But for me to allow that experience to unfold I have to do the complete opposite of what the world teaches, I have to develop trust, faith. But trust and faith in who or what, you may ask? In the part of me that remembers Who I really Am. And that part can only be accessed through peace. In other words, by being still.

"A healed mind does not plan. It carries out the plans that it receives through listening to wisdom that is not its own. It waits until it has been taught what should be done, and then proceeds to do it. It does not depend upon itself for anything except its adequacy to fulfill the plans assigned to it. It is secure in certainty that obstacles can not impede its progress to accomplishment of any goal that serves the greater plan established for the good of everyone." W-pI.135.11:1-4

“A healed mind does not plan.” Interesting isn’t it? It reminds me of the old scripture, “Be ye transformed by the renewal of your mind.” The challenge with many spiritual teachers is that they think that controlling the mind is about us taking charge of our thoughts so that we can take charge of our lives. And yet, the fact that we have been trying to take charge of our lives is the reason why we find ourselves striving, struggling, pursuing, fixing, when the reality is, there is nothing to strive for, to struggle for, to pursue, to fix. And that is because everything we think it is missing in our lives, it is within. But since we are projecting all that we see, and regardless whether the projections seem pleasurable at times, they are still projections. So to recognize the kingdom within, we have to let go of everything that is not real. That’s why we offer all of our thoughts to the part of our mind who remembers Who we really are.

You could say that I want my circumstances to change. Well, if I want to exchange one illusion for another that could be true. However, if I want to experience my true Self, I have to trust that every experience I am having is simply leading me to that recognition. And as the lesson suggest, we do so by “listening to wisdom that is not its (our) own (intellect).” The ultimate paradox is that when we let go of wanting to fix our experience, we open ourselves up to experiences that in illusory form may seem more pleasant. But where we have to be careful is that we are not attempting to change our illusions, all we want is the peace of God so that we are never at the effect of any illusions.

"A healed mind is relieved of the belief that it must plan, although it cannot know the outcome which is best, the means by which it is achieved, nor how to recognize the problem that the plan is made to solve. It must misuse the body in its plans until it recognizes this is so. But when it has accepted this as true, then is it healed, and lets the body go." W-pI.135.12;1-3

Noticed that it says that a healed mind is relieved from the belief that it must plan, and not the mind itself. Because the mind, which is only One mind, the mind of God, needs no healing. However, the belief within the mind is the one that we are able to heal from when we allow the Holy Spirit to do the work it is appointed to do, and that work is not our own. We need do nothing except but to surrender our thoughts to the Holy Spirit for reinterpretation. That’s pretty much what I do in each and every moment, to the best of my abilities, as I move through this seeming challenging experience. And yes there are times when I find myself judging my experience. And yes there are times when I feel a bit frustrated. And yes there are times when I question my own journey. And all of these are opportunities for me to practice forgiveness and to simply choose again.

The paragraph also talks about the fact that “it must misuse the body in its plans until it recognizes this is so.” Misusing the body is the same as to make our own plans based on our idea that first, we know something, and second, that what we perceive with our physical senses is true reality. But once we recognize the truth of Who we Are, the mind is healed and there is no reason for us to project another body, and for that matter a world of illusions. Then we get to experience ourselves back to the place we never left, our home in God.

"Enslavement of the body to the plans the unhealed mind sets up to save itself must make the body sick. It is not free to be the means of helping in a plan which far exceeds its own protection, and which needs its service for a little while. In this capacity is health assured. For everything the mind employs for this will function flawlessly, and with the strength that has been given it and cannot fail." W-pI.135.13:1-4

This one I have to be a bit careful because the words may suggest that having a healed mind is synonymous of a healed body. We must understand that the body itself is not real, however, it could be said that when a mind is healed, the body that needs to carry out a plan for Spirit will experience health and strength in physical form. However, a healed mind, meaning, a mind that is very clear that it is not a body would not be disturbed at all, even when the body may be experiencing what could be considered a physical imbalance. That’s what it is often referred to as the peace that passeth understanding.

As I am going through this seeming journey, I have had experiences that many would consider fearful or even painful. Lets’ face it. I don’t know where I’ll be sleeping tonight. And I seemed to be going from couch to couch, with an occasional bed when someone has an extra room to spare. I have been fortunate for the donations I have received because I don’t have any source of income coming in. As a matter of fact, I just put my music studio for sale, and have financial commitments that I don’t know how they’ll be met. And while the world may be screaming at me “DO SOMETHING”, here I am typing these words. I simply trust that this is what I need to be doing, and I’ll be led as to what to do next as I continue to trust, to let go, and let God.

Maybe I am crazy. Maybe I am insane. Interesting enough, here is a little quote I received today from someone who was interested in the studio monitors: “There's a thin line between insanity and genius and that is success!” -Albert Einstein. I am not saying that I am pursuing success, but who knows, maybe I am up to something here.

Another interesting synchronicity I would like to share, this morning as I went to the park, a quick fear-based thought started to creep in. At that very same moment someone walking towards me was listening to a song in his iPhone, the words of the songs, just as he want by were, “speaking words of wisdom, let it be.” If you recall from my book What Happens When You Let God, the words let it be by the Beatles are what I end up every chapter with. Coincidence? I don’t think so.

"It is, perhaps, not easy to perceive that self-initiated plans are but defenses, with the purpose all of them were made to realize. They are the means by which a frightened mind would undertake its own protection, at the cost of truth. This is not difficult to realize in some forms which these self-deceptions take, where the denial of reality is very obvious. Yet planning is not often recognized as a defense." W-pI.135.14:1-4

Let’s look at what you just read. What is a self-initiate plan? It is nothing but an idea the frightened mind comes up with in order to attempt to insure its own protection. But if the world that we see is not real, what is the frightened mind afraid of in the first place? It is afraid of nothing. Right now, I am having an experience that may suggest that I need to make plans to ensure my own survival. Yet, so far, I have had the opportunity to meet incredible people, and to even been a vehicle for healing to them, that would not have happened had it not been for me having this experience. Let’s take it one step further. This whole experience is a huge opportunity for me to look at my own ego, and to notice where I need to heal. However, if I were to judge my experience, I would not be able to make decisions based on truth because my focus would be more on the survival of the form, rather than the healing of my mind. But if I continue to trust that everything is happening in divine order, as it is supposed to, I will be provided with what I need in order to continue doing the work I am here to do. And just for the record, I am open to the possibility of getting a job. I have placed applications and nothing has come back. This reminds me however of a conversation I had with my friend Regina, who is becoming a well-known spiritual teacher, author and lecturer.

She shared with me about a day or so after I had to leave the place I was living in that when she felt guided to quit her six figures salary career to start writing her book, when her savings started to run out, for a moment she started to question whether she should find employment or not. The first thought that came to her mind was that if she go out there and start looking for work from a place of fear, she is really not allowing the Holy Spirit to truly take care of her needs. As she continued bringing herself back to peace, the still voice within was letting her know that it was not necessary for her to do anything, and that as she continued to trust, while doing the work she was appointed to do, all of her financial needs would be met.

Family and friends started to get angry at her thinking she was being insane. Long story short, to this day, she continues doing her spiritual work, being called to facilitate workshops across the country, and all of her needs have been met, while aside from selling her books, and being compensated for her work, people who truly believe in what she does continues to support her financially. And by the way, did I mention that she is a single mother who has a daughter? Talk about faith!

Now let’s say that things were to change and to go my way. That’s when the lesson reminds me, “This is not difficult to realize in some forms which these self-deceptions take, where the denial of reality is very obvious.” The reason being is because although my illusion may appear to be very appealing, it is still an illusion. By the fact that I am sacrificing truth for illusions I am simply setting myself up for changes that will continue to perpetuate the fear in the mind. That does not mean that I cannot enjoy an exchange of illusion. What I am saying is that even as I am writing this book, and my circumstances could dramatically change for something that may appear to be more pleasant, I have to remind myself of what my real and only goal is, which is to remember Who I really Am.

"The mind engaged in planning for itself is occupied in setting up control of future happenings. It does not think that it will be provided for, unless it makes its own provisions. Time becomes a future emphasis, to be controlled by learning and experience obtained from past events and previous beliefs. It overlooks the present, for it rests on the idea the past has taught enough to let the mind direct its future course." W-pI.135.15:1-4

The paragraph you just read in pretty self-explanatory. However, let’s take a look at the next one, which I think you’ll find rather interesting.

"The mind that plans is thus refusing to allow for change. What it has learned before becomes the basis for its future goals. Its past experience directs its choice of what will happen. And it does not see that here and now is everything it needs to guarantee a future quite unlike the past, without a continuity of any old ideas and sick beliefs. Anticipation plays no part at all, for present confidence directs the way." W-pI.135.16:1-5

If I look at my life experiences, you could say that have learned many things that if I were to put them into practice may produce specific results. So I could use those experiences as references in order for me to plan ahead and change my life. But am I really changing my life? Or am I simply operating from old beliefs and memories. And if that is the case, changing is not what I am seeking but security. In doing so, by not giving myself the opportunity to live in the present moment, I would not be giving myself the opportunity to experience true change. The scenery may change a bit, as most people have experienced when they end up making more money, or exchange partners, or purchase new toys. But they are just locked in a never ending loop of constant dissatisfaction, always wanting more, until the more, and the excess and their external distractions no longer fulfill them.

By me surrendering to the moment I am giving myself an opportunity to having new experiences unlike the ones I experienced in the past, which does not exist by the way, and a future, which is also an illusion. In form, the illusions may consists of a better job, more money, a partner that would make me happy, for some, better health and so on. In truth however, a future quite unlike the past means, the permanency or peace, happiness, wealth, love and joy that results in remembering Who you really are.

A quick reminder, if some of what I am sharing here may be a bit challenging for you to grasp, it will become very clear if you read my first book, What Happens When You Let God.

"Defenses are the plans you undertake to make against the truth. Their aim is to select what you approve, and disregard what you consider incompatible with your beliefs of your reality. Yet what remains is meaningless indeed. For it is your reality that is the "threat" which your defenses would attack, obscure, and take apart and crucify." W-pI.135.17:1-4

Remember that your plans are the defenses against the truth of Who you are. They are what you use to attempt to protect yourself from illusions that are not real. In doing so you are exchanging the permanency of your joy and peace for an illusory world that is constantly changing, for one that is always fluctuating from pain to pleasure and back to pain again. Now let’s move on to one of my favorite paragraphs from this lesson.

"What could you not accept, if you but knew that everything that happens, all events, past, present and to come, are gently planned by One Whose only purpose is your good? Perhaps you have misunderstood His plan, for He would never offer pain to you. But your defenses did not let you see His loving blessing shine in every step you ever took. While you made plans for death, He led you gently to eternal life." W-pI.135.18:1-4

I am going to translate that paragraph using my personal experience.

"What can I not accept, if I but knew that everything that is happening, all events, past, present and to come for me, are gently planned by the One Whose only purpose is my good?"

“Do you mean me not having a place to call my home? Not having enough money in my bank account? Not knowing where am I going to sleep? Wondering if I will ever make money or have a wonderful life and on, and on...? Well, although this may be hard for most to accept, that is exactly what the Course is asking me to do. To trust that everything is unfolding exactly as it is supposed to for my highest good. That being said however, it could be said that I am extremely creative, and very inspired to type the words you are reading. Many people go to a job and bring in a paycheck, but they have no life. Their soul is consumed by their false sense of security, one that in due time will change because that is the nature of a world of illusions.

Applying it to myself, then it goes on to say:

“Perhaps I have misunderstood His plan, for He would never offer pain to me. But my judgments did not let me see His loving blessing shine in every step I ever took.”

As I look back in my life, I can honestly see how everything that took place was perfectly orchestrated in order to help me grow, always looking out for my best interest. Had it not been for me sleeping in my car last week, I would not have met Gene, Bob, and the streaming set of events that have taken place since. I am not saying that I am looking forward to sleeping in my car, what I am saying is that I am not resisting what is, for in doing so, I am making myself believe that I know something. The Course always reminds me that I don’t know what anything is for, which I’ll elaborate a bit more after reading this last sentence.

“While I make plans for death, He lead me gently to eternal life.”

The gift my journey is offering me, as I continue to remain open, is that is helping me see how I truly don’t know. The more I keep surrendering to the fact that I don’t know, the more I open myself to true knowledge and wisdom, wisdom not of my own. Paradoxically however, all of my needs are met as I continue to do the work I feel more inspired to do as opposed to the work everyone thinks I should be doing. Where will I be led to? The answer is, I don’t know, and I am okay with it! That’s trust, that true freedom!

I feel that by know you have an understanding for what this lesson is about and how I am applying it to my own experience. I will leave the rest of the lesson for you to read and enjoy before moving on to the next chapter. And if there is any confusion, remember that What Happens When You Let God will be able to bring clarity to what I have shared in this chapter.

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Your present trust in Him is the defense that promises a future undisturbed, without a trace of sorrow, and with joy that constantly increases, as this life becomes a holy instant, set in time, but heeding only immortality. Let no defenses but your present trust direct the future, and this life becomes a meaningful encounter with the truth that only your defenses would conceal. W-pI.135.19:1-2

Without defenses, you become a light which Heaven gratefully acknowledges to be its own. And it will lead you on in ways appointed for your happiness according to the ancient plan, begun when time was born. Your followers will join their light with yours, and it will be increased until the world is lighted up with joy. And gladly will our brothers lay aside their cumbersome defenses, which availed them nothing and could only terrify. W-pI.135.20:1-4

We will anticipate that time today with present confidence, for this is part of what was planned for us. We will be sure that everything we need is given us for our accomplishment of this today. We make no plans for how it will be done, but realize that our defenselessness is all that is required for the truth to dawn upon our minds with certainty. W-pI.135.21:1-3

For fifteen minutes twice today we rest from senseless planning, and from every thought that blocks the truth from entering our minds. Today we will receive instead of plan, that we may give instead of organize. And we are given truly, as we say

If I defend myself I am attacked. But in defenselessness I will be strong, and I will learn what my defenses hide. W-pI.135.22:1-4

Nothing but that. If there are plans to make, you will be told of them. They may not be the plans you thought were needed, nor indeed the answers to the problems which you thought confronted you. But they are answers to another kind of question, which remains unanswered yet in need of answering until the Answer comes to you at last. W-pI.135.23:1-4

All your defenses have been aimed at not receiving what you will receive today. And in the light and joy of simple trust, you will but wonder why you ever thought that you must be defended from release. Heaven asks nothing. It is hell that makes extravagant demands for sacrifice. You give up nothing in these times today when, undefended, you present yourself to your Creator as you really are. W-pI.135.24:1-5

He has remembered you. Today we will remember Him. For this is Eastertime in your salvation. And you rise again from what was seeming death and hopelessness. Now is the light of hope reborn in you, for now you come without defense, to learn the part for you within the plan of God. What little plans or magical beliefs can still have value, when you have received your function from the Voice for God Himself? W-pI.135.25:1-6

Try not to shape this day as you believe would benefit you most. For you can not conceive of all the happiness that comes to you without your planning. Learn today. And all the world will take this giant stride, and celebrate your Eastertime with you. Throughout the day, as foolish little things appear to raise defensiveness in you and tempt you to engage in weaving plans, remind yourself this is a special day for learning, and acknowledge it with this:

This is my Eastertime. And I would keep it holy. I will not defend myself, because the Son of God needs no defense against the truth of his reality. W-pI.135.27:1-8

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